Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

cant you idiots just get lost and get out of my life ?

dont try to act like you know me very well. cos i can safely say that you dont.

i know what you think. i've heard it from her. i went through that whole period of getting worked up about it, being bothered about it. i didnt expect you to even mention it.

i tried, did you even see it ? you didnt bother, did you ? i just knew you wouldnt.

of course, there's no one to blame. no one is at fault. but i dont see how it's my fault also. it's my style. you were happy with that thats why you agreed, didnt you ? you knew but now you're making a fuss out of it ? i dont see the logic. dont think you're so smart and excellent cos i can say you're not. you're not even people i look up to. you're not even someone who are excellent role models for me to follow. cos you dont know it, but i've heard how much people hate the way you work. so still think you're that great ? think again.

the question you posted to me. WHY. i've been asking myself this the whole time. i really dont understand WHY. why why why. i guess i just cant come up with any reason for you right now. but the combi was bad. i can really say it's bad.

who was the idiot who came up with this idea in the first place ? you the creator of problems. life is complicating enough. why couldnt you just let us be who we wanted to be ? instead of changing us to become someone we're not ?

damn ! am i pissed.

stop being such 'square' people can you ? you're supposed to learn how to be creative. everyone's emphasizing on the change. and that we should not follow what used to be done. we should change since everything's different. but hey ! this only happens when you want it to change. i dont feel it's fair. the more you say it's different, the more we should get a say in it. isnt it the right way ? you're calling the shots all the time. you're always right. thats bullshit im telling you. can you learn to listen ? maybe others have better ideas. it's so ironic how you keep emphasizing on the change when you keep thinking so 'square-ly' yourself. you're still thinking the old way. so what change are you even talking about ? i wasnt 'bred' in that manner just in case you forgot.

i thought of an example to elaborate but we'll leave this as it is.

plus today, you told me exactly what you wanted. she was there too. we questioned the effiency of it all. you said it'll be fine. when everything went as you said, you told me that we forgot about it. HELLO HELLO HELLO ? -slaps you. NOW DO YOU REMEMBER ? as usual, we're at fault yet again. hooray ?! she wasnt there to verify. i was there alone trying to tell you that i was hundred percent positive. yes, hundred percent. i totally couldnt take the way you kept saying you were right. damn it ! you made the mistake. but it's our fault ? or should i say my fault ? wth. whats this ! of course, since she wasnt there, i was seen as the 'bad guy'. (yet again) this so doesnt make any sense to me at all.

losing your memory ? i think everyone should start walking around with tape recorders. we so need to record every single thing thats said. to think i thought you were nice. oh puhlease. /:

i really need this whole venting session. whats this ! i dont see any logic at all. im pissed at you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you and you. get lost. dont think you're all that great. cos you aint. ugh must you piss me off so so so so much ?

damn you ! im gg to close my eyes and count to three. when i open my eyes, you'd better vanish. one.... two....

im looking at my blog. 'run the redlights'. i wish i could do that. be like peyton, it helps a person relief stress maybe. the problems might just vanish. 'listen to your heart'. im listening to it. it hurts bad. it says cry. it's trying to find a way out too. help. im desperate.

GET LOST & DONT COME BACK.

let your heart out.

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